JUDGE ME AND MINE & KEEP YOUR WOLVES DRESSED IN SHEEP’S CLOTHING ON A PEDESTAL.

Once upon a time, in a land kinda far away… I was a robot. There were no wires, sensors, control systems or software under my skin, but, I did have a function that habitually moved me. I was equipped to please.

As a robot, you don’t need to worry about your own feelings – because there are none. Perhaps occasionally a twinge of something begins, but it’s quickly dismissed… because there are more important things & people who are counting on your services.

It’s irrational to believe anyone has the type of power I was attempting to achieve in my robotic status. A few years back I ran into some mechanical problems & I started having original thoughts. When a systematic person’s soul sole function is to ensure the happiness of everyone around them, eventually some wires will get crossed.

Sparks flew.

My head spun around a few times.

Violently, I shook.

Without warning, I felt control over myself. Control of happiness, choices, words, time, decisions, effort, feelings, direction, wants, needs, sadness, passion… I felt it all. The discipline I’d crafted for everyone else’s happiness – was turned onto myself. Where has the concern for me been all this time? What have I missed out on?

As the reality exploded in front of me, I ran with it.

I found a passion & started writing. Writing turned into comprehending & more feeling. The feeling transformed into self-love; that type of love does not come from other’s happiness – it comes from your own.

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself. 

-George Bernard Shaw

Change does not translate easily to everyone. A dramatic shift in demeanor must mean something negative, right? Assumptions were made & ideas turned into fabrications.

There’s chatter from across the way:  Sally, Joe & John are worried about you… 

FIX IT – it’s what you do.

Reach out. Talk to them. Tell them where you are. Tell them everything is going to be okay.

The truth is…no one asked; Sally, Joe & John assumed. Slowly, it became a slap in the face. Regardless how slow the motion & connection, it hurt.

It is unacceptable to theorize my life with a negative tone & not question it. It’s distasteful to chatter among yourselves about a toxic situation you believe I’m in & not question it. Because of this, there are people in my life I no longer speak with. Do I miss them? Yep, sure do.

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Judge me and mine & keep your wolves dressed in sheep’s clothing on a pedestal.

Life is not about proper movement.

Being isn’t about knowing what to say all the time.

There should not be a script for every day life.

Originality is inspiring. Your brain can be exercised & you won’t even break a sweat. Don’t be afraid to stick up for yourself. Don’t be hesitant to find happiness in unconventional ways. Find something you’re good at… do it, a lot. Your ideas hold value, even if it’s only to you. Don’t do anything for the masses. 

Just be happy.

Don’t surround yourself with anyone who fights that.

3 thoughts on “JUDGE ME AND MINE & KEEP YOUR WOLVES DRESSED IN SHEEP’S CLOTHING ON A PEDESTAL.

  1. Jen, I’ve always enjoyed your candor. It sucks that it takes people out of your life, but guess what? If you aren’t happy then all that other stuff doesn’t matter. And hey, if you didn’t start writing and having opinions and stuff, you may have never met me, and that would have been a tragedy.

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    1. Thank you Ben, I appreciate that. I’m not sure I’d still be here today had I not stumbled across your Friday Gifs.
      Yes I would…
      But my Friday’s would be less entertaining.
      Which is kinda like not being here anymore………………
      No, its not.
      Anyway – Thanks for the encouragement, you’re good people.

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      1. Well, it’s been pretty awesome to have a blog friend from a place not far from where I grew up. That talks about the Vikings without sneering or laughing. And one who has been so upfront about how you feel.

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