Once upon a time, in a land kinda far away… I was a robot. There were no wires, sensors, control systems or software under my skin, but, I did have a function that habitually moved me. I was equipped to please.
As a robot, you don’t need to worry about your own feelings – because there are none. Perhaps occasionally a twinge of something begins, but it’s quickly dismissed… because there are more important things & people who are counting on your services.
It’s irrational to believe anyone has the type of power I was attempting to achieve in my robotic status. A few years back I ran into some mechanical problems & I started having original thoughts. When a systematic person’s
soul sole function is to ensure the happiness of everyone around them, eventually some wires will get crossed.
My head spun around a few times.
Violently, I shook.
Without warning, I felt control over myself. Control of happiness, choices, words, time, decisions, effort, feelings, direction, wants, needs, sadness, passion… I felt it all. The discipline I’d crafted for everyone else’s happiness – was turned onto myself. Where has the concern for me been all this time? What have I missed out on?
As the reality exploded in front of me, I ran with it.
I found a passion & started writing. Writing turned into comprehending & more feeling. The feeling transformed into self-love; that type of love does not come from other’s happiness – it comes from your own.
Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
-George Bernard Shaw
Change does not translate easily to everyone. A dramatic shift in demeanor must mean something negative, right? Assumptions were made & ideas turned into fabrications.
There’s chatter from across the way: Sally, Joe & John are worried about you…
FIX IT – it’s what you do.
Reach out. Talk to them. Tell them where you are. Tell them everything is going to be okay.
The truth is…no one asked; Sally, Joe & John assumed. Slowly, it became a slap in the face. Regardless how slow the motion & connection, it hurt.
It is unacceptable to t question it. Because of this, there are people in my life I no longer speak with. Do I miss them? Yep, sure do.
Judge me and mine & keep your wolves dressed in sheep’s clothing on a pedestal.
Life is not about proper movement.
Being isn’t about knowing what to say all the time.
There should not be a script for every day life.
Originality is inspiring. Your brain can be exercised & you won’t even break a sweat. Don’t be afraid to stick up for yourself. Don’t be hesitant to find happiness in unconventional ways. Find something you’re good at… do it, a lot. Your ideas hold value, even if it’s only to you. Don’t do anything for the masses.
Just be happy.
Don’t surround yourself with anyone who fights that.